| its been forever it feels since i have had a clear thought.i sit here thinking about my friends and family.my past and future and the only thing that is repeditively running through my head is sabbath.i wish i could have told her a lot of things before she started hating me. i wish i could have told her i was sorry for every thing.if i could undo it i would .i wish i could let her know i never stopped loving her that every time i close my eyes i see her.that it still drives my completely nuts when she is anywhere near me. I have been with my current gf for 2 years and have a beautiful baby girl.but i still cant get her off my mind. I tried drinking away the thought of you and failed. i wish i could've known what the future would hold back then.you were the only person i told i love you to before i every saw your face. your the only thing that could make me shrivel without even touching me.youll never read this but. Im sorry Wish i could have been able to say that a long time ago. i said i would never stop loving u and so far i never have. |
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| My life has changed a tramindus amount since i last wrote on this site.i have changed alot since last time.im 20 years old.I have a beautiful little girl her name is jaiden rain walton no im not married aand far from it. I was sitting here today going threw my page and relised how much i have changed.I read some other blogs from my friends. I relised how many mistakes i have made in my life and how many people i have hurt or just pissed off and for that i apologize. I wish i could fix all my mistakes. Andrea your a good friend but i think thats all wee should have ever been.im sorry if i ever hurt you i had no intentions of it you are a great person and i hope you find happiness one day. Sabbath im sorry i ever hurt you its a regret im not with you every time i open my eyes and a nightmare everytime i close them. I still think of you everyday and wish i could find the courage to tell you to your face. But wishing is for children i know noone will ever read this thats probly why i put it here...But no matter i have to get this off my chest.I wish i could fix what happened between us.I never realized how much i cared until i pushed you away. I never new my leaving for the coast gaurd effected you. I know you hate my guts and i never cross your mind but you have never left mine. im sorry i didnt keep my word when i told you we would be together for ever.we may not be physically but your with me everyday. I miss you and will always love you. I hope all is well and i hope you are happy. |
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| I hate the fact that i breath. i wish i could burn down the world and everybody in it im tired of catching shit for others fuck up and im tired of my own fuck ups i wish i could just quit fucking up it aint gonna happen but i can wish.
Its just one of those days.... if u know me then dont be a smart ass rite now it could be very unhealthy.. |
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| this is anawsome fucking link to tell you your sex/love life and deadly acurate answeres heres the link.
http://www.crush007.com/v2/predict/1147586939hyj
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| death how attracting to one with nothing to live for it must be nice to have a heart that connects with othere mine is gone so if death is wat u seek then end it all but u must be weak .im tire of changing to make everyone around me happy if ur god is so powerfull then tell him he needs to fix this fucked up world.
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